Tuesday, March 29, 2005

My TV Movie

When the CAT scan report said that the node in my neck was still abnormal (before the doctor explained it was scar tissue, not lymphoma) I felt as if I knew this narrative. It's the TV Disease movie. The plot is discovery of disease (normal person whose life is turned upside-down) followed by grim prognosis (okay, mine wasn't grim) followed by disease appears to respond to treatment (often experimental.) Then there has to be a crisis. I told myself that abnormal node was my crisis, and that it was a lot better than the alternatives; heart failure as a result of the adriamycin, say, or pneumonia, or discovery that the disease was resistent to chemo, or infection and sepsis. I told myself that 'It's not gone yet,' was a relatively inexpensive form of movie of the week crisis. I should be pleased.

But I am a lot more pleased to discover that this is a lousy narrative for suspense. Turns out, woman has disease, woman gets cured.

I'm so glad to be boring.

And I feel better than usual after chemo because my lung tests indicated that we should probably stop the bleomycin. (My long capacity is good, but my ability to take up oxygen is at 65% of expected. This will reverse itself with time, but no sense in making it worse.) So my chemos are shorter and I feel better after them. And the weather is beautiful today. The doctor would like me to do some light exercise. I plan to take the dogs for a fifteen minute walk. We could all use it.

12 Comments:

Blogger David Moles said...

Hooray for boring!

March 29, 2005 5:45 PM  
Blogger Madeleine Robins said...

May you live a long life filled with ennui. Hope it was a splendid fifteen minute walk.

March 29, 2005 7:44 PM  
Blogger socalheather said...

Oh if we can all be so boring! This just leaves the rest of your life to be everthing but boring! Let the cancer take that title. I'm so happy for you and Bob. Boy, do I hope I follow in your footsteps!
Love,
Heather

PS...when we're all better I think you, me, and Sarah should all get together somewhere and meet.

March 30, 2005 9:50 AM  
Blogger Maureen McHugh said...

Heather, I would love for all three of us to meet! And celebrate!

March 30, 2005 11:03 AM  
Blogger Gregory Feeley said...

Glad to hear you're better, Chemo Sabe.

March 30, 2005 12:29 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

This is Tom...

Okay, so, we ditch the plot line about the writer battling cancer, and focus our story on the little dogs.

The audience just *loves* little dogs.

April 01, 2005 9:40 AM  
Blogger jon said...

I was looking at your posts about bone cancer and found a good article about the same bone cancer info too...

God luck with it : )

October 02, 2005 10:40 AM  
Blogger jon said...

We are trying to find good download movie file to take the kids this weekend. Good download movie file reviews are hard to find

I just stumbled onto your blog while looking. Seems to happen to me a lot since I am a knowledge mooch LOL

Thanks

October 02, 2005 1:50 PM  
Blogger bemusedly resources said...

Looking for asbestos lung cancer information I came across this post. I totally agree with you and would feel the same way!

jon

October 03, 2005 9:49 AM  
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October 05, 2005 7:34 AM  
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October 06, 2005 8:24 AM  
Anonymous Andrew Steel said...

Hey, how's it going? I just came across your blog and I've gone through a lot of what you've written in the past. I can see what you are saying and can relate to bit of it. Its actually weird that I ended up at your blog, cause I was actually doing an assignment, looking for information on New Lung Cancer Treatment. Even though your posts didn't exactly correspond to what I'm trying to find, it was still a good distraction. I guess it always is when you've got to do a damn assignment. Thanks anyway.

January 27, 2006 4:00 AM  

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