They are magic. For me that means, it turns out, that they have to be a gift. I can't go out and buy magic. Maybe I could make it on my own, but I haven't tried. My husband is a skeptic. Bob subscribes to The Skeptical Inquirer. He's a skeptic the way some people are Catholic. This isn't to say that he doesn't have his own secret talismans--he has worn a yellow Livestrong bracelet every day for months and if it isn't a comfort to him, it is certainly a comfort to me. But mostly he isn't a lucky charm kind of guy.
But even he was as blown away as I was by my new jacket. It's a jacket my by a Texas woman shaman. I'm not going to identify her by name, although the people who helped her know who she is and who they are. The feeling of magic just rolls off this jacket. It's covered, quilted in personal symbols--Chinese ideograms for health, two Ferrari's (printed on cloth, and Bob and Adam were both very psyched) cranes for longevity, butterflies, birds, blue water. I've never, ever owned anything like it in my life.
I don't know how to say thank you for the hours and care that went into this jacket. I'll get Bob to take a digital photo of it. (I keep taking it out and showing it to people.) Today, for the first day, it's warm enough that I can wear it when I go in for my CAT Scan.
A good friend of mine was wrongly fired and Cleveland writing community rose up and spontaneously started a campaign that got him re-hired. We sent letters, copies of which ended up with my friend. He said that it was a little like the scene in Tom Sawyer where the boys get to hear their own eulogies. I feel that, too. I feel as if I have been cosseted--no buffeted with caring. I wish everyone could have this feeling.
But nobody but me can have the jacket.