April is Not So Cruel
I have the windows open again today and despite the shortness of breath and mild nausea that always occur after chemo, I am buoyed by the sun and the air. No wonder people go to the beach. I liked to hike before but I didn't love it. Today, if I could, I'd spend the whole day in the air. Post-remission euphoria, I guess. My own personal parole coinciding so neatly with spring. It's supposed to rain and maybe snow a little on Saturday but next week, more mild temperatures and balmy days.
I feel a little fragile emotionally, as if this joy might give way to exhaustion. But so far it has held up and I intend to inhabit it as completely as I can. I'm feeling my way back out into the world.