Life as an Invalid
Of course, now I'm busy. Not horribly busy, but the schedule seems just as full as it ever was. My vision of Hodgkins as a kind of weird, epic vacation is fading fast. For one thing, I feel better if I'm doing stuff. This seems horribly obvious now, of course. So I exercise--not as hard as I used to because if I work out hard my joints ache. But if I do a light work out, I've got more energy. I'm doing a freelance gig. Not like the days of ilovebees--this one is much less work (at least for me.) A friend of mine and I are trying to get a theater project going. I've got a short story to revise, a book to read for my book club, stories to critique for the two writer's groups which managed to schedule their meetings for the same day. We keep getting invited to friend's houses for dinner.
In other words, life goes on.
I wish I could tell you that now I savor it, but that wore off really fast. It is amazing how quickly it just becomes...well, every day life.
The doctor looked at my chart--this is the end of my second chemo cycle and halfway through as I said yesterday. He ordered a CT Scan to see how it was going before I start cycle three. He can find no evidence of Hodgkins in my neck by palpitation, which is so weird because it was there a week ago. But I have prodded myself bruised in delight and he's right. I still have a lump of scar tissue from the biopsy, but not that cluster of nodes, like tiny wine grapes only hard.
It is amazing how casually oncology orders things like CT Scans. A CT Scan takes fifteen minutes and costs something like $1400 (which in my case is completely paid for by insurance.) But when oncology says jump, the Clinic jumps.
My blood count was nearly the same this time as the last, 1.36 instead of 1.4. But I don't work with the public anymore and Dr. Schnur is so please by the way I am handling the rest of chemo (no real pulmonary or cardio effects, no neuropathy, no real sickness, no sudden disastrous plummet of blood count, no infections, and lots of other 'no's) that he says to keep going.
But I know I'm going to get more fatigue as this goes on, and I haven't completely given up the idea of my fainting couch in from of the DVD player...