Twice--does that make me a Veteran?
How important it is to have some sense of what will happen. When I first learned about Hodgkins, I immediately went researching. It just makes me feel better, even if it is a false sense of control. I know other people, many of them smart, competent people, who prefer not to know. But that's not me I'm afraid.
What I can't figure out is how much to plan. I have a possible freelance gig but I feel compelled to tell the employer that I've got Hodgkins, and you know, I'd be hesitant to hire someone who may not have the energy at the time we need it. Someone asked me about getting together to do something in February--well, it will depend on how I feel. Much of how I feel depends on how close it is to a chemo session. But, for my second chemo session, my white cell count was low. We went ahead and did the session anyway (if you're contagious, don't come near me.) But this means the third session may be postponed, so I can't extrapolate out...
None of this is even remotely cosmic. It's just...juggling.